I'll Be Fine

-Yawn-

2007-04-13T01:40:05Z

God, I'm tired. Seriously. I feel like...I don't know...sleeping in clouds would be nice...if I didn't get wet...cause ya know, clouds are water. Wow, Staci is very smart today.

What I can truely say is that I'm actually happy. I realized on Tuesday, when we had a discussion in English about if we were truely happy or not, that I wasn't truely happy, for two main reasons. One-my friend had made me feel down in the dumps for a long time, and two-I like this guy, but I realized that that was making me extremely depressed, so I decided that i will be happy, not the fake happy that I've been for a long time. I actually broke down and started crying, which is huge for me, since I NEVER cry. My best friend was comforting me the whole time.

So, I talked to the friend who was making me feel down, and she was really shocked that I was feeling that way, and quickly said "I could never NOT like you!" She even gave me a rose to make me feel better, which is now on my bed-side table. And as for the guy, there's not much I could do about that, but I'm gonna try and let him go. Besides, he's graduating this year, so I won't have to se him everyday.

But I realized after I talked to my friend that I felt soo much happier. And that's the way it shall be. ^-^

Staci is back to her usual hyperactive/ecstatic/happy-full self once again!!

-Ja ne!

Battle Royale!

2007-03-31T03:03:24Z

Battle Royale is one of the most awesomest books in this entire world. Seriously. I borrowed it from my friend on Tuesday and finished today; three days. I also realized that "The Program" has to be finished in three days, so creepy coincidence. If you have no idea what I'm talking about, look up Battle Royale, by Koushun Takami. It's a wonderful, sickening, twisted, bloody, goory, disgusting, yet brilliant novel, originally Japanese, but translated into English. It's about a Japan that exists if Germany had won WWII, and the government is so fascist/1984-ish. Yet the teenagers of Japan are very unruly and rebellious, and so the government, in a act to control them, created this thing called "The Program." What "The Program" basically is is that once a year, a random class of fifteen-year-olds, 21 boys and 21 girls go on a "study trip," where they are gassed with sleeping gas on the way and taken to a deserted island. There, they are given a bag that has a loaf of bread in it, a bottle of water, a watch, a compass, a map, and a random weapon. And they have three days to kill each other. The one who survives gets to go home. There's a bunch of other stuff thrown into it, but it's really a very fascinating book.

Hazzah! First Post!

2007-03-27T00:29:57Z

Ello all! This is Ayako-chan, and welcome to my livejournal! This is my first time here, so please, treat me kindly! *bow*

Ayako likes anime, espically Bleach, DNAngel, and Fullmetal Alchemist, video games, espically Kingdom Hearts, Japanese music, both pop and rock, 30 Seconds to Mars, classic rock, popcorn, hugs/blomps/glomps, along with many other things.

Can't think of much to say right now. I'll think of something though. I have to go to Japanese class now, but I wanted to at least post something before I left. Ja ne!

-Ayako